tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23060795837829877752024-02-21T14:23:10.073+05:30AKSARVikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.comBlogger60125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-49368893979187776532017-01-03T16:09:00.001+05:302017-01-04T18:11:20.880+05:30बातेंकाला रंग और काली रातें,
जेब में रखी ढेरो बातें,
निकली हैं कुछ कहने को,
रंगो से फिर लड़ने को,
सुन कर मुझे दोष ना देना,
हंस कर बस यूँ टाल ना देना,
माना मुझमे पंख नही है,
बंद होठों पे रुकी ये बातें,
आँखों में इज़हार हो गया,
प्यार मेरा स्वीकार हो गया,
महीनो की आँखों से बातें,
होठों से हसने की बातें,
पर जब से है बोलना सीखा,
जैसे सब बेकार हो गया,
गूंगी बातों के चक्कर मैं,
प्यार मेरा लाचार हो गया,
घुट घुट कर मारती हैं अब,
फँसी जहन में बहुत सी बातें,
उड़ने की कोशिश में गिरती,
अधमरी सी मेरी बातें,
कह के भी हैं टूटी फूटी,
बिन कहे दम तोड़ती बातें,
आग लगी जब मॅन के भीतर,
खुद को ही जलाती बातें,
रात नशे मैं बुदबुदाती,
सोच रहे सब कहाँ से आती,
कड़वी पर सुरीली बातें,
मस्तियों मैं नहाती बातें,
कुछ बातें सीधी हैं जैसे,
कुछ मेरी कविताओं जैसी,
पूछते हैं बहुत से लोग,
कैसे लिखते इतनी बातें,
मैं फिर भी चुप रहता हूँ,
एक टक सबको देखता रहता,
गर आता मुझे बोलना तो,
क्यूँ लिखता मैं इतनी बातें...
Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-17219643794643169502016-12-06T17:04:00.000+05:302016-12-06T17:06:43.319+05:30Bad-dream-mintonI really cant remember when I first played badminton. I never knew that I will go so far while playing badminton. I dreamt of participating in NBA, playing cricket for my college team (haha, a very long story though), being the best defensive player in volleyball and one stylish ass hole in football. But badminton no, and that too I am now thinking of a badminton related tattoo on me. I know that is a little too much for a 35 year old, regular but not so good player, wanna be professional in sports, to think of. But this is what I am made of. Dreams essentially. Do whatever you do but dream for something day in day out. However far or unreasonable it is, but it is my right, duty, option, best pastime, no option left or a way of life. That is it. And this time it is badminton what I am hitched to. so be it.
Dreams take me away from what I do in daily life and from what I am thinking continuously about. I was never an all time thinker. I used to be on the other side of it. Mostly blank in my thoughts. Blank in the content people talk about. Blank from inside of the ambitions. Blank which I am still to fill with some thing meaningful. I know writing to fill some blank spaces will not solve the purpose. But it will either put some black ink in the white space or put some structure to so many thoughts going in the mind.
Coming back to how badminton is helping me fill these white spaces is kind of routine. When your body pushes you towards a fitness regime, you don't have a choice but to pick something and I picked badminton. Fortunate that I got a gang in which everybody pretends to love the game. So we play and drop and smash and defend and toss. what!!! yes play with our ambitions, drop the ego, smash the thoughts in air and still defend our positions that we will succeed and still get tossed by life. So be it.
Let me not stop playing badminton and let not the dreams come in between filling these white spaces. What will I achieve out of it is not to be seen. I know that this question never comes in mind but I get an answer everyday.Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-41741421153735529112012-03-22T23:15:00.001+05:302012-03-22T23:15:48.797+05:30मैं रहा हूँ संग पतंगो के...कोशिशों के दायरे और सपनो के सीमाएँ, <br />दूर कहीं उड़ती हुई पतंगो की यह अदाएँ, <br />मैने रंग देखे हैं पतंगो के, <br />मैं रहा हूँ संग पतंगो के, <br /><br />उड़ता था मैं रोज़ उनके साथ, <br />काटता था कभी और कटता भी, <br />दूर कहीं जाकर गिरता था, <br />और फिर हर शाम धीर धीरे, <br />घर वापस आ जाता था, <br />सूरज को ये भी कहता, <br />की कल वापस जल्दी आ जाना, <br />मैने पैसे लिए हैं मा से, <br />कल भी तो पतंग उड़ाना है, <br />सपनो में रोज़ उड़ जाना है, <br /><br />मेरा मॅन और मेरे किस्से, <br />थोड़े सच्चे थोड़े मीठे, <br />सॉफ नीले आसमान मैं, <br />मेरी पतंगो जैसे उड़ते, <br />उड़ना हक है जैसे इनका, <br />बातें करना मुझसे हँसके....Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-13610027133993137342012-02-09T19:18:00.000+05:302012-02-09T19:20:49.176+05:30Empty SpacesOnce she leaves me alone in the bed, <br />I do not have any choice but to rest, <br />I look around for the things she left, <br />I get nothing but an empty space, <br /><br />Space where she was sleeping, <br />With her own cozy soften tenderness, <br />And when I have nothing to grab, <br />I grab a piece of softness from her bed, <br /><br />I turn around and sleep in her place, <br />Just to check whether I am still awake, <br />Thinking and smelling her presence, <br />She was certainly there in that empty space, <br /><br />It made me wonder that I can feel her, <br />I still remember that chilling winter, <br />I was sleeping alone, talking to her, <br />So loud and so much clear, <br /><br />Let me sleep at least in the empty space, <br />Let me catch her all over again, <br />Let me be with this little thought, <br />Let me live with her a little more…Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-511525740594672422011-11-20T22:33:00.000+05:302011-11-20T22:34:11.034+05:30सपनो की एक नयी चालडोरी फिर उलझ गयी आज,<br />सपने बुनते बुनते,<br />अभी तो मैं सोया ही था,<br />सपना भी यह पहला ही था,<br /><br />उलझन से शुरुआत हुई,<br />सपनो की एक नयी चाल हुई,<br />उलझ उलझ कर रहते हैं,<br />मेरा मॅन जैसे ये पड़ते हैं,<br /><br />क्या मैं इन सपनो को,<br />अलग नही रख सकता हूँ,<br />सपनो की इस दुनिया मैं,<br />अलग नही जी सकता हूँ,Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-28041968970815755192011-09-23T11:47:00.002+05:302011-09-23T11:51:13.181+05:30Life is moving onAfter completing almost 8 months after MBA, I am all set to have a peaceful life?, very ambitious career?, will be filthy rich one day?, will have my own company?, will be working for society?. All these question marks have been there and are still there. What do I need do to do to remove these question marks from my life? Now that is the important question I think. If you can’t beat them join them. That is what the success mantra should be.<br /><br />But never the less I know the art of achievement. What if my career does not provide me the sense of achievement and appreciation to me? What if my life is not forcing me to quit my job and start over some business? What if I have even stopped thinking about joining some NGO? What if it’s been long since I have actually achieved something great non-materialistically?<br /><br />So a little analysis before we come to the final conclusion. If I categorize the different times of life then primarily there will be three categories. One when you are down and out. Everything seems not working for you. You are generally in a deep shit. Fucked up with your life, relationship, career, money everything you crave or may crave for that matter. Very similar to what Indian team faced during the recent England tour.<br /><br />Second would be when you are on a high. When you drink and dope to the death. You buy a lottery ticket and you get the prize too. You go for a vacation to Thailand and Goa with your girlfriends. You are the most important person in the office, star of the month types. You have a girlfriend and a wife too. You are driving the car you never thought of.<br /><br />Third would be the general life in which you wake up on Monday and don’t want to go to the office. Your tummy is slowly but steadily increasing. Your learning curve is stagnated since long. You have not been hurt/thrilled/happy/sad/fucked since a long time. Basically there is not much difference between you and the flower pot in the house.<br /><br />So if we see the total life time it is very natural that almost 80% of our life goes in third type of time which is stagnate living. 10% on high and 10% on low!<br /><br />Every part of time has its importance and there is an art attached to live every part. Like when you are on a high don’t go overboard, I mean you should be able to come back to normal rather than slumping all the way. Low in life is best for learning. The most important lessons of life have been taught in that phase. So one must and must think through this time and learn the art of learning during this time. Also low is generally followed by a very high period. So more and more lows in your life and there are chances that you are going to make it big. Because life will force you to do something which you will never do otherwise.<br /><br />And then the third and most dangerous one, Normal life! Don’t train yourself to live with the normal life. Very dangerous for the so called achievement and growth in life! But what we essentially need is to understand the art of achievement about which I had talked initially. This art of achievement during the normal time is also important so that you don’t see your life moving on in front of you and not able to do something about it. How to achieve and grow is still a question but need for this achievement and growth is required and one must and must strive for that.Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-795897797170140222011-02-27T00:06:00.001+05:302011-02-27T00:06:47.007+05:30Rose and Daal ChawalThis is a story of rose and daal chawal.<br />Rose is a little girl. She wants to live her life like a feather.<br />A feather floating in the air, driving herself through irregular pathways, just letting herself go with the air, just letting herself to be free.<br />A feather crying quietly on the rain moist leaf of the tree outside her home because its been a while since she has cried and today she just wants to let her heart out. <br />A feather, when touched to the sensitive skin of a little baby, finally ends up in the giggles by both the baby and the feather.<br />A Feather safely kept in the personal diary of dal-chawal, in which he has written so many unfinished poems and articles about the love of his life.<br />Love was the subject he liked in his writings. Incomplete, unfair, painful yet so much needed and so much there.<br />Let the story begin…Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-84728205149607454182010-09-07T19:57:00.001+05:302010-09-07T20:01:59.951+05:30Lets do businessTop line: for a business it is the revenue earned through selling a product. If we observe our body closely we may call our brain as our top line. The areas in which our brain ventures may be called the revenue which it earns from the external environment. This is the cumulative exposure we get by keeping our senses operational. Though most of the times it is not by choice but we somehow gain exposure to different areas.<br /><br />Bottom line: for a business it is the amount of profit it earned after paying all its dues. All the dues include operational cost, selling and general expenses, cost of investment (interest), tax and income through other resources, if any. For human bottom line can be the legs. More elaborately it can be the actual feet you achieve in different walks of life. The actual learning we inculcate in our behaviour, thinking, habits can be more accurate representative of whatever we have learned.<br /><br />Cost incurred to achieve the bottom line: in case of a business one has to incur some <br />cost to get the revenue and hence profits. This is basically the energy (in form of money) which runs the business. As expressed in the paragraph above operational, general expenses, overheads and cost of raw material can be different cost to a business. In case of our body it could simply be the energy to run our body. Energy gained from breathing, eating, sleeping (resting); all contributes towards safe running of our body. Our body processes these form (air, food, water etc) so that we can earn some profit i.e. learn things in life. And inefficient process may lead to a disease, fat accumulation, inefficiencies, unrest, anxiety etc.<br /><br />So now if we closely observe ourselves then our existence has a purpose like all business and that is to earn maximum profits means maximize our learning as we move ahead in life. The average age of this company is around 65 years and in these 65 years whatever we learn will be more or less whatever we have earned as profits. But as it happens with most of the companies we can not control our processes and costs and end up being a bad company. Though we still survive but not in a way in which we should be surviving. May be we do not set sufficient process for ourselves so that we can control the whole growth. And when we intentionally do not set these systems a default system is being set in place which finally runs our company without our control. So lets not let this default system of chasing money rather than learning stuff, accumulating fat rather than being controlled, putting too much on stakes than to be content (for a change) control our self.Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-21154928350431156552010-08-29T00:14:00.004+05:302010-12-25T09:14:15.062+05:30मॅन>>>><<<<<सपनेवक़्त के सिरहाने पे करवट बदल रहे थे हम,<br />पाँव अभी मिट्टी में ही थे,<br />तन थोड़ा सा गीला,<br />मॅन जैसे बंद हो गया है<br />इच्छाओं के इस भुलावे में,<br />आँखों के इस बहकावे में,<br />कहीं खो गया है, चित्तियों के इस ढेर में,<br /><br />भूल कर मत जाना तुम अपना मॅन मेरे पास,<br />मैं बहुत दूर जाओंगा आज सपने में,<br /><br />डोरी पकड़ कर पतंग की तुम भी उड़ना मेरे साथ,<br />आज फिर कट कर लहराएँगे हम, गीरेंगे दूर कहीं जाकर,<br /><br />संभल कर सोना मेरे पास,<br />वक़्त के इस तकिये पर करवट बदल रहे हैं हम...Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-13907291725154934142010-07-21T14:45:00.001+05:302010-07-21T14:50:59.572+05:30Let’s Unlearn..I am halfway through the canal. It is very unlike a canal. Things are not dark here; at least that is how things have been projected. Flashy and bright! So I am half way through it without any confusion of where to go. <br />I am a good follower I must say.<br />Somebody just needs to show me the direction, never mind even the wrong ones. <br />I like to walk, never mind where I am heading to.<br />This time a lot of learning has been done. Lots of different conscious experience I have gone through. Conscious because it has been emphasised so many times that we should and must revisit the stuff. Otherwise also I think we will learn. It goes back to your mind where you don’t realise that you have learned.<br />Now you have disturbed me in the middle of the write up and hence the deviation of the chain of thoughts. <br />Let’s be back. <br />Let’s start unlearning the stuff fast so to have a steady life ahead. I did not want to create bumps for myself and then ride on to it and prove myself to be a good rider. Damn a good walker I am. I know that. My fat tummy is the proof of it. Yesterday I went so ahead in my dreams that I forgot the way to come back. And I disappeared in the vagueness of my mind and thoughts. In the absolute of vagueness!<br />Cool so many things to unlearn now. <br />But why this unlearning? So that I can write all the meaningless stuff once again. I hate meaningfulness. In the sense and in the attitude also! Let me be the way I am without a damn reason. Without a choice; helpless to the core. Let’s be amusing to others. Let’s talk less this time. “Let’s not do it” this time for a change. Let’s die all over again to live a new life. Let’s unlearn..Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-57453127829844101842010-04-21T13:15:00.001+05:302010-04-21T14:26:38.957+05:30Status UpdateIt has been three months since I got married and so early my philosophical brain is out of its shell. The simple reason of saying so is that I am writing a blog on my status. Though there are numerous sites which help you in knowing your day to day status as you can update your status in those sites but I guess that is not enough when it comes to your real status. So here is my attempt to understand my status. Status as in mental status only, as writing about physical and situational is either very simple or very complex! So it is like an exam where questions seem difficult just to please the students.<br /><br />In my quest to understand my status I first thought about what expectations I have from my life. For that matter, I never had any expectations from my life and in continuation with that I never had any expectations from my married life also. So whatever I gain is net profit because there is no cost involved. And even if there is cost at least it is not visible to me. So if I write about my status in few words then it will be something like ’merrily married without too much of expenditure’.<br /><br />When it comes to my beer drinking status, the data is very depressing and I humbly request the beer lovers not to read beyond this point. As the huge loss to the beer drinking society may lead to very disappointing consequences to the beer loving reader. These days very humbly I take permission from my wife to have a couple of beer. This couple of beer does not extend to more than a couple like old times. It strictly limits to two. But still I thank god because my wife insists me to have a couple of breezer. And having just a couple of breezer is like a punishment, so no punishments please. And as far as status in terms of few words is concern, it should be “come beer, come breezer, come all, come fast”.<br /><br />The biggest influencer in the status deciding process are like books, movies, a hearty talk etc. its like when I watched shawshank redemption for the nth time, my status changed to “Hope is a good thing, the best of things”. When I finished reading notes to myself my status changed to “the heart loves but moods have no loyalty, moods should be heard but never danced to.” If you had a good talk with your friend your status will be like “life screws us all, it’s only a matter of time.”<br /><br />And finally when you are not doing anything, which is the case 99 % of the times, then you try to change your status without any purpose and then come the status like “I am bad at deciding what haircut to take”, “busy and available at the same time”, “god, give me some purpose”.<br /><br />There is a joy in having a good status message I must say, never mind the actual status we are going through but a status message we project should be worth while…Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-45693094090481224822010-03-04T11:19:00.001+05:302010-04-21T14:26:51.689+05:30Gita ShibirI do not know the expectation of a B-school from me. First there were Learning Management classes and then PG Lab and now Gita Shibir. From objectivity to subjectivity to a mix of both! That is what I have been oscillating around. I must have an objective goal in life and then do everything to achieve it and now I have a subjective goal of attaining the happiness which is somewhere hidden in my self. This goal is subjective because it is related to my understanding of the whole matter. Actually it is about understanding only. Once I understand and confirm the way this particular concept of achieving happiness works, I suppose I become successful in life, at least for that particular instant (considering life means integration of all such small events). Like I enjoyed a good meal or a good walk, I feel content about it, satisfied about it. That is what I need to practise in my life, to have these walks more and more. But the whole concept of happiness keeps changing as you evolve yourself. And that is why I call it as subjectivity.<br />So the problem is not like which way to take. As far as my understanding goes what we as b-school students or more active corporate individuals needs to make sure of this subjectivity in the attainment of objectivity. And if we do that successfully I think we have done our part.<br />I suppose I do not need to stop and first attain the happiness and then go about being a CEO of my dream company but in the process of becoming a CEO I should attain the happiness level required to have personal harmony. This way I will be successful and happy and probably more effective.<br />Do you see any problem in the above given context or you think that you will be able to do it. I don’t know whether I will be able to do it or not but my problem is I tend to get involved in one side of it. Once I feed myself with the dreams and ambitions I tend to become more objective and tend to loose the balance on being happy. And if I think about being happy then I tend to become more easy going and less ambitious towards my aim of owning a Ferrari one day.<br />Is that a correct understanding of the thoughts we have been exposed to. I would say no. <br />Let me consider a situation where I am content with my life as in whatever I have, I think is enough and does not need anything to add materially to my life. Now if I need to serve the purpose of serving to the society I need to have few personality traits which will make me realise that I should do something for the society. Personality traits like kindness, compassionate, non-violence, truth honesty. I am talking about a very ideal situation where I am content with whatever I have and now because I am very kind and generous, and when I see people in grief I try to help them. These personality traits will be my motivation to work for the society. For keep doing work for the society it becomes imperative on my part to be always content otherwise I will never be able to work for the larger cause. An easy understanding of the situation is if I am thirsty it is less likely to share the water I have. So the point is to quench your thirst first and then go about helping others in quenching their thirst.<br />So now I hope it is clear to have your thirst quenched first (because only then you will be able to offer yourself totally for the sake of society at a large) and then do something for others (because of your inherent personality traits like generosity, compassion etc).<br />How does it fit in the roles which I will be doing in my future? This is generally a mistaken thought that who is self happy will not and will not be able to change the society at large. But can you change the society if you are not a part of the system. So those who are working for the society are at that level. The more at a higher rank I am in the corporate ladder the more effective I will be in bringing about these changes. And if I posses the required personality traits then the effect on the society will be immense. Few example Ratan Tata. Ratan Tata is most effective when he has the natural personality traits (dominated in his personality) and then he achieves a rank of CEO and then brings about changes. Had he been just a happy man and not doing anything for the society would not have served the purpose of his attaining the happiness.<br />So objectives are few<br /> • First and foremost to keep self happy and content with the life (subjective part of this objectivity)<br /> • Understand that I can bring about changes in society at large only if I have the required natural values assimilated in my personality.<br /> • Understand that I need to be a part of the system to work wonders for my goal towards the society.<br /> • And then keep achieving objective goals by being objective at large and keeping my content quotient intact with me.<br />This I had put in these words but I don’t know how I will follow my own words. Probably I don’t need to follow. What I need to do is to just chill and just keep a check on my value system and make it a rule to not violate my value system whatever may come. I think rest all will fall in place automatically.Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-64418420341615099102010-02-28T08:55:00.002+05:302010-02-28T18:09:24.371+05:30I can make stars...I can make stars. Stars not as in bollywood star or a cricketing star but the stars on the paper with the help of a pen. Simple! That is what I do. Keep things simple. But for this also first I have to complicate things. So its like first complicate things and then emerge as a winner after achieving it.Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-28029585032886149832010-02-19T19:45:00.001+05:302010-04-21T14:26:38.958+05:30Personal Growth "Lab"The sheer positivism flowing around the PG lab exercise somehow made me wonder, can it really help? We face such transforming experiences in life and that certainly doesn’t come out of the class rooms. The more you have cuts and bruise the better are the chances that you will learn the lesson. Very unlikely in the classroom setting. Still the class worked wonder and people felt happy that they are a part of it. <br />Is PG Lab a business preposition or a real tool to create the required change in the person. It is certainly creating value for the participants as it will throw the lights on the territories undiscovered till the time. And this revelation gives a feeling that you have conquered the monkey and from now on you will be the slave of your planned approach. How many of you did not know before, that you tend to talk a lot even when it is not required (A bull in the china shop), or for that matter you don’t take feedback even when you know that the change will work wonders for you (A tortoise). The terms are assigned to the already known things. Now you know what type of a person is that called, or maybe the better use is to criticize somebody comfortably in a larger group where people will understand your wit equipped with the jargons.<br /><br />Now it is creating value for the participants as the participants are the customers or the main objective of all the exercise. Few other important aspects which stand out in the full exercise are as follows<br /> • The place where the classes will be conducted, close to the nature. As if otherwise we have not seen trees and grass and mosquitoes and sunrise and sunsets and we are living in most unnatural of all the places (some kind of different unnatural galaxy).<br /> • Trekking, which is always fun. Learn or not learn it is fun to trek. Few quick advantages are no classes, you can take lots of pictures for facebooks and orkuts to show the world that you are learning in a superhuman way, feel that you have conquered something which by now was hidden under the golden natural reserves, think that you did a great team building exercise even when you did not bother who has finished the trek and who doesn’t.<br /> • Games, now this is really exciting. It is a mess to finalize a strategy. More than the strategy people think their perspective or analysis is the thing to crack the game. Well there is no right strategy for that matter, the one which worked wonder for you is the right one for you. I should write a full blog on how the politics of finalising the strategy for the game is not a matter of the innovation but more a matter of team players sticking to whatever stupid thing has been finalised.<br /> • I guess 99 percent of Indians (I do not know much about the other nationals, and hence can not comment) love to play ‘antakshari’ and you give them a chance to play this game or let them sing under a cosy setup of bonfire and evenings and you have their happiness quotient shoot up like anything. It’s like you make them sing for some time and then ask about whether India should attack Pakistan or not and there will be philosophies raining. You know, because people are happy and their take on life is different from what it is under stress and lots of assignments.<br /> • Thank to SPJIMR admission process that the ratio of male to female participants is something which I should not even mention (to escape from the wrath of my batch mates as it will not be a good thing to reflect), otherwise the happiness quotient of few more participants would have increased dramatically and we would have had great life changing experiences from the PG Lab.<br /><br />Without going further into details of everything, the one thing which stands out in everything that has been done there is that the participants were made to believe that they are happy, they are achieving, they are rediscovering and then the effect of the lab is what you can observe. From where this sense of happiness or achievement or rediscovering has come? This sense has been injected into us without even using an injection, and that is the power of a human brain (now please don’t imagine an injection which works with your mental strength). And when you think that you are emerging as a winner you tend to accept the outcome. <br /><br />This is where the crux of it lies, make life a PG Lab. Don’t wait for somebody to take you to garudmaachi and then do a locus of control of belief test and then come to a conclusion that you are a self believer. Make the surroundings natural (grow more trees for that matter, or have small plants in the so called GAMLA). Achieve one thing daily, the point is to realise the achievement (as simple as you have managed to attend all classes without your brain thinking about anything else). Be happy and don’t ask me to give you a reason to be happy. Otherwise I will ask you make a team of your reptile brain and your rat brain with the mammal brain as the referee to play a game of antakshari or to sing a group song with all the three brains, so that you can just be simply happy without any complications. PG Lab is a wonderful thing not because it discovers the territories not explored till now but because it proves that life is just about the happiness, achievements, antakshari, music, nature, sun rise and sun sets, laughter, team building, losing happily, johari window and all the wonderful drawings everybody had made.<br /> <br />Don’t come back, stay there at PG Lab.Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-85033064217801018182009-11-24T13:01:00.001+05:302009-11-24T16:32:51.448+05:30Take a Chill Pill and be happy without a ReasonI know I have been writing poems/blogs as stupid as the paintings I make, and it does not benefit anybody in this whole world but that is what I like to do best in my free time, in my busy time, in my extra time and in all sorts of different times I have or I can have. So I am up to it again and will not stop before completing this genius work of art i.e. writing this blog.<br /><br />In the beginning I wanted to write about happiness but the hangover turned my attention towards headaches. So it is a kind of trivial situation of happiness during headaches, which I think is a little awkward situation to write about. After drinking a couple of liters of water to safely negotiate with the dehydration, my stomach is still swollen with water inside. It is not my controlled tummy but it certainly is the water which is acting as a reason for the abnormal growth. In the midst of everything lunch time has arrived and now I have to oblige the food as its kind consumer.<br /><br />I ordered for a plate of happiness as the dessert after my lunch. The lunch was very good. Very fulfilling I must say. They call this dessert as happiness as they might intentionally want you to realize the feeling when you eat it. He took more then ten minutes to bring it which is usually high with the standards of this busy restaurant but there might be some purpose of this delay I guess. They might want me to wait for my happiness and then relish it and realize it fully, once I get it.<br /><br />This is how I am being fed with the happiness now days. I order it, wait for it, eat it, realize it (optional) and then pay for it. These are the few factors on which happiness is dependent. How much is the price (affordable or not), how much I can wait, how much I can eat (too much of it might not be good for health), even after eating I am able to realize it or not, and then whether it deserves the price they have quoted once the time of payment has come. Analytics have frozen my mind and heart too. And my happiness is dependent on the analysis I will be doing after having my share of happiness. Probably I should learn some tricks to sharpen my analytical skills or should do some crash course to be a well analyzed-capable-planned-happy man or should I take a Chill Pill and be happy without a Reason.Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-11642163606174386412009-11-09T15:45:00.004+05:302009-11-24T16:34:39.711+05:30हँसना मत मेरी कोशिशों परTring Tring<br />Me - Hello, may I speak to Chetan please?<br />Her - May I know who is speaking?<br />Me – It’s me Vikas, you know me, right?<br />Her - Yes I know you, so what’s up?<br />Me - Nothing great, actually I was thinking about you since quiet long and finally believed that I should talk to you about this. I want to meet you once. Will you meet me?<br />Her - I have told you before also that its very difficult for me to come to meet you. <br />Me - Just once, its been long since I am thinking about it.<br />Her - Ok I will think about it.<br />Me - Cool! I will be there in few more days till then you have all the time to think about it. Chalo will see you then bye and take care.<br /><br />I was left with a sum of 1 dollar in the prepaid phone card I bought at the port of Jacksonville and this is how I used the card.<br /><br />My life on board for the next one month was a bit different. I have got one more reason to sign off and do something which I have been craving to do since last 12 years.<br /><br />She was the first love of my life. And still she is ‘the love’ of my life. She is the one who made me realize that ‘we boys’ are different from ‘those girls’. That was love at first sight. I still remember that sight. Clearly! That is one of the few childhood memories I still carry.<br /><br />हँसना मत मेरी कोशिशों पर,<br />मेरी भावनाओ के इस इंद्रधनुष पर,<br />मानते हैं की जुड़ते नही,<br />अंत इन अंतहीन इच्छाओं के,<br /><br />पर मेरी कोशिशों की कुछ तो वजह होगी,<br />इंद्रधनुष के रंगो में कुछ तो रोशनी होगी,<br />बेवजह नही बदल देते रंग वक़्त की परिभाषा,<br />प्यार की कहीं तो कोई सूरत होगी......Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-68523048590684543622009-10-26T17:40:00.004+05:302010-02-18T10:18:37.923+05:30Painting and drawing the happinessThe ‘Reinvent Yourself’ class started with the introduction of the professor. I will not write the events as they happened but would pick them in a little different manner. So here you go…<br /><br />I wish my name would have been happy singh. ‘Why’ you will ask and the reason is very simple. As soon as the professor told us to draw or paint happiness, people would have come to me and painted me with colors. On a more serious note, suppose if we would have had a girl named khushi or happy rani in the class. Phewww…no more serious thinking I guess.<br /><br />So to continue on a rather light weight issue of identifying the happiness spread around us and then giving it a shape was truly a great exercise and can safely be assumed as a common thread of the full 3 days of rehabilitation. Don’t you consider yourself a little stuck in the present habit regime and want to shift to the next vicious circle of few better habit regimes and this time with lots of attitude and skill. So to rehabilitate yourself you must go through the full program and after that you will be reinvented. You will be able to notice that you sneeze too loud in the office, you have not cleaned the dead skin of your foot since long, half-sleeve shirts and shorts are not so formal, you don’t use hindi in between while talking to somebody, many more things which till now you were safely ignoring.<br /><br />Attitude and skill, that is what I will be building there. Like a gym where you do the bench press with the weights more than the combined weight of your head, arms, heart and lungs. And this is exactly what I will be doing to build the so called attitude and skill - pressing the benches (classes) , books, quizzes, professors, mentors, seniors, soft targets, hard targets, imaginary targets more than I have done till now. And for that I have got all the reasons now as nobody will ask me ‘why’ are you doing so?<br /><br />To be a little specific now one among us drew a calendar having all the days of the week as Sundays and was really a wonderful way to draw the happiness. But these guys seem to be a bit ahead in the thinking and Sunday is no more a holiday there. Instead they prefer a Thursday for a holiday. So is it a plan to convert our lazy Sunday happiness into busy working unhappiness of any other day or it is again a part of reinvention that we should start enjoying our busy working unhappiness. They really have the plans of reinventing our happiness it seems. So the next time they tell us to draw the happiness we should draw a calendar having all its days as Thursday and people will think that ‘oh how lovely, this guy seems to be liking his work a lot.’<br /><br />I am sure I will be a ‘better defined human’ after this whole issue if not a better human. I will be able to draw more and clear pictures of my happiness and the happiness of people around me. So let me walk towards that better defined human and please don’t ask ‘why’!!!!!!Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-76160922788922268342009-10-01T17:36:00.005+05:302009-11-05T16:31:27.689+05:30मैं बस बेवजह समय काटना चाहता हूँ....बेवजह समय काटना,<br />कितना आसान और कितना मुश्किल,<br />सुबह से ऐसे बैठा हूँ जैसे काम का अंबार है मुझ पर,<br />सोचता हूँ ऐसे, जैसे सो ख़्याल हैं दिमाग़ में,<br />किसको दिखा रहा हूँ, कि व्यस्त हूँ इस अव्यवस्था में,<br />जीवेन की दौड़ में और रास्ते की खोज में,<br />परछाई का रंग लाल हो रहा है जैसे,<br />सूरज कहीं कहीं से फिर खो रहा है जैसे,<br />पकड़ सकता हूँ अपनी परछाई के रंग को मैं,<br />ऐसे ही मान जाओगे या कर के दिखाउन मैं,<br />मेरा रंग जो भी हो परछाई तो रंगीली हो,<br />अपने मॅन से जो सपने देखूं हू थोड़े तो नशीले हों,<br />वैसे तो आप ही आप को खिलाते हैं रंगो का ये खाना,<br />ना जाने काला रंग किसको है निभाना,<br />रंगहीन सी जिंदगी और रंगीली ये परछाई,<br />सालों से तस्वीरों में दिखती ये तन्हाई,<br />निकल कर बाहर आज फिर लुट गयी है,<br />अव्यवस्थता की गहरी खाई मैं कहीं डूब गयी है,<br />मेरी तन्हाई दे दो मुझे की मैं नही चाहता रंगो में नहाना,<br />मैं बस बेवजह समय काटना चाहता हूँ......Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-42561760870494833212009-09-22T12:47:00.001+05:302009-10-05T14:04:13.064+05:30Conversational GeniusI am feeling a little thirsty. Can you get me some water please?<br /><br />Who asked you to drink so much yesterday. I guess doctor Krishnan must have prescribed you to have 4 large pegs of SINGLE MALT to cure the loneliness. <br /><br />Why you females always think that we become ‘rickshaw wallas’ after drinking. BTW did you notice that lonely girl in the party? Why was she looking so sad?<br /><br />Was this an after effect of the divine drink or you are generally very ‘observative’ in the parties.<br /><br />I keep my eyes open, so that I can see the beauty around regardless of my state. But now the little finger of my left foot is asking for a drink. And this time it is plain water. And I want to help her desperately.<br /><br />I also want to help you, not so desperately though, but just wish that it would be ‘he’ not a ‘she’ whom you are so craving to help.<br /><br />See you are not even good at wishing things. Wish more babu, wish bigger, with an open heart.<br /><br />I too had a heart once upon a time. But now in the vain to protect everything from loosing, I just don’t stop and couldn’t feel that I have it any more.<br /><br />This TV is so full of shit and especially these news channels. Look now they are reporting about a dog that travels in Mercedes. Whatever…<br /><br />I have not seen this painting, which I made when you proposed me, since long. Oh god its so…..can you tell me that story of rose and daal-chaawal once more.<br /><br />You know where that story ends. So you want a pictorial demonstration or a voice conference will be ok for you ma’am!<br /><br />Your little finger of left foot wanted some water I guess. I will get it for the poor fellow. Can we go out for dinner today?<br /><br />Can We?<br /><br />Your sense of humor is just fantastic. You should open a humor designer firm and consult people to increase their level too.<br /><br />You know this forum ‘22 knots’ of my college alumni, right? Mr. Basu wrote a one liner. Everybody came up with a suggestion. Few analytical one, few helping one, few a little criticizing and few are just plain observative. Finally that led to Mr. Basu hoping in front of his computer screen.<br /><br />I hope you are not telling me this because we just did that.<br /><br />Come on we are not like this.Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-37769828909629925422009-09-16T12:47:00.003+05:302009-10-05T14:04:34.789+05:30My Stories in 55 WordsI tried to write three stories in 55 words. Here it is....<br /><br />------------------<br /><br />The old blade messed his grown beard more than his relationship. He has plans of sealing the lips and life with a kiss. The broken mirror didn’t let him see his face. She hated unpleasant surprises. He didn’t want to surprise her either.<br /><br />------------------<br /><br />I was born smiling and thought that I will die also like that. I saw her and I smiled. I saw her sleeping in my arms and I smiled. Every time I smiled I almost died. Today she left me. I couldn’t smile. I don’t want to live but couldn’t smile to death either.<br /><br />------------------<br /><br /><br />She loved her mirror. She could look back in past with that. She was beautiful and wanted to be more. Her face in the mirror was a thing of past. Her mirror though told her about the comparatively less beautiful present. She threw it to run away from present, but lost the past too.Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-61968732272648660042009-09-15T15:25:00.000+05:302009-09-15T17:12:50.705+05:30I m PatientHow much time do you take in there! Hurry up, I also have to empty my stomach.<br />Look, there is only one thing which I specifically do not like and that is to wait, so please do not make me wait. And come ASAP.<br />How slow is your typing? If you will type at this speed we will be in the office for the whole night. Come on now, do it fast.<br />Why the fuck are you pressing the horn. Do one thing, get a pair of wings and fly over my head. Idiot!<br />Why are you kissing me so impatiently! Relax! Just feel the touch, do it gently, you will like it better.<br />I wish I could read a bit faster and could finish all the five articles in 10 minutes, shit man! Why I am such a slow.<br />Last few days on board and then I will be a free bird again. God is just great.<br />Life is running on a fast track. I will finish my beer fast and will join the race.<br />While watching movies on the VCR last night, I forward the songs and boring emotional scenes. I like fight scenes and only watch fight scenes at the original pace.<br />You know what, my dad caught me yesterday while watching English movie on TV. As it is I waited for one and a half hour for a ‘scene’. Finally got caught and couldn’t see anything.<br />These articles about lifestyle in the newspaper are so boring. Why do these people always preach us about being patient?<br />Mom, can I sleep a bit faster? Just like a jet plane! Sleeping and again waking up faster!<br />If I breathe slowly as they do it in yoga, I don’t get enough air to breathe and that really suffocates me. This breathing slowly really seems a little tricky.<br />Get married soon, and start your family then. What are you waiting for now?<br />I am a patient of lack of patience. See I am not even patient enough to be a proper patient.Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-49987447165291241802009-09-03T20:15:00.001+05:302009-10-10T22:46:07.475+05:30.....अब आज जो निकले हैं, दम भर के निकले हैं,<br />मेरे अरमान थोड़े नम से निकले हैं,<br />बाँटते थे यह नमी हम हर सुबह की शबनम से,<br />मौसम जो बदला तो बारिशो में नहा कर निकले हैं......Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-40350779283820542092009-08-16T20:19:00.003+05:302009-09-15T17:13:39.705+05:30Indepence Day SpecialThe subject line of this message may remind you of some local train started on Independence Day, but certainly that is not the purpose of it. The purpose is more of a social kind. I am sure all the readers are socially very active and do a lot for our society. To continue with that spirit, let’s make some resolution on this not-so-special occasion.<br /><br />1. We will always follow the traffic signal, even if it makes a fool out of us. We will never cross a signal if the light is red. Never mind we are crossing the road or driving the car.<br />2. I know nobody of us spit on the road and from now onwards we will not also puke on the roads and will try to have a plastic vomiting bag if we have the slightest idea that we are going to get drunk while coming back home. One more step would be to stop others from spitting, if possible.<br />3. No unnecessary pressing of horn pad, press something else easily available which will give better sound then the horn. But keep your hands away from the horn.<br />4. A message against smoking or drinking and driving or drugs would be great on the number plate of your vehicle. Instead of keeping it too simple lets have some stylish number plates.<br />5. Give seat to oldies and kids in bus, train, plane, movie hall wherever possible without any second thought of justification that it is right or wrong.<br /> <br /><br />And last but not the least; keep that smile on your face always. May be nobody had told you before but you look really cool when you smile.<br /><br />Jai BharatVikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-11458196891040053152009-08-13T16:38:00.001+05:302009-09-15T17:13:12.380+05:30MamujaanMaking girlfriends earlier was a little dangerous issue. First of all it was taken for granted that if you have a girlfriend, you will marry her. Coupled! Coupled not just with the girl but with the commitment, with the imaginary love, with the heroics if your girl is an item, with the body guard kind of feeling in the attempts to stop other gunda boys and with the excitement of meeting the first love of your life!<br /><br />Secondly if somehow you will not be able to marry her then it automatically makes you mamujaan. Never mind the reasons why you did not get married. Many of my friends became mamu’s quiet proudly. Few more fortunate ones became mamu more than ones. And few legends are still alive in the hope to become a mamu some day.<br /><br />Love was the driver and lover the passenger in the coupled car. No matter what we will become one day but it was our duty to love and that we did. Loved with everything we have and everything we could have. And finally died as a martyr dies…became mamu.<br /><br />Mamu or no mamu but I still wonder very few of us could make our girls bua. We used to wait till the girls forcibly marry somebody who is not at all of their choice. Then the life comes to a halt, to a dead end, to an unfillable void, to the irrecoverable moment. You become serious in life. And you forcibly marry somebody else.Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2306079583782987775.post-51129957905755952592009-07-14T11:37:00.001+05:302009-09-15T17:13:26.695+05:30Mental ConstipationRains have affected the thought process I guess. Though I prevented myself from getting drenched but I guess something is still washing out everything in my mind. Sometimes it’s good to have your drains choked, I suppose. So that you can hold on to your thoughts and ponder upon them! It is good to realize/observe yourself rather than just let the time and the changes in your thought process to go by. So it is good to be a little mentally constipated.<br />On a different note, why all my drains are open is also a question to ask. May be I was pursuing a temporary goal and was focusing so hard that I forgot to stop by and observe. It happens many a times that you loose interest in the thing which you like to do most. May be because of the temporary goal or is it a sign that I am moving on? Moving on from my present mindset to another one which has different priorities and different goals!<br /><br />So mental constipation or free flowing change, I do not know what to chose as I told you I am not able to hold on to anything now.Vikas Shrivastavahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11591851414852795888noreply@blogger.com2