Kona-Kona SWOT Analyis

I am playing a game of kona kona with my Self, Wealth, Opportunities and Threats. With me as the person who is trying to find a safe place.
Let me tell you a bit more about this game. We used to play this game in school when we were kids. Four people will occupy the four corners of the room. Fifth person will be corner-less and will try to get a corner for him as the others will be exchanging corners/places.
Though this is not a rule but the one who does not have a corner is teased by the others who have it and/or have exchanged the place/corner making a fool out of him. It is somehow inborn in us that we do not like anybody to make fool of us. Fools we are. Are not we? My self realization is dependent on others reaction.
My self and wealth exchanged the position. I tried to grab the position of wealth but got a bit late. Now my self is acquired by wealth and in hope of wealth I lost the place of self. So what am I left with? No self and no wealth. Self is in position of wealth. I wanted wealth that is why I ran for it but could not grab it. They both teased me a bit.
Wealth seems to be very cunning. He exchanged the place with opportunities now. All bloody wealth is converted into opportunities so now if at all I take the place of wealth I will only get opportunities and then I have to take the hard route to convert it into wealth.
All this while there is one thing which was running in mind continuously. There is something which I exactly did not want to happen. I do not want opportunities and threats to exchange place. I mean I do not want my opportunities to convert into threats. That is why I was keeping a constant eye on the opportunities and threats. Because of this self and wealth exchanged position many times. Effortless transition from one position to another! This transition somehow distracted my concentration and there you go. Bloody opportunities and threats have exchanged positions. Now everything is turned over on its head.
Final SWOT Analysis
I am left with no self and no wealth as I could not occupy any place moreover both has made a joke out of me. Wealth many a times converted in opportunities and finally opportunities converted into threats.
This certainly is not my favorite game any more.
If I get a safe place I will probably stick to it. That will make it worse as I will never be able to acquire other different places.
Play ‘I spy’, play ‘suraj chhand’, run for the ‘cheel ki parchaai’ but do not play kona kona and if you have to play it choose your mates carefully.

Words of Wisdom

'International Airport' Andheri wala. and I sat in the auto.
I had taken bath before leaving home so I was very relaxed and planning to have a good silent conversation with self in the auto ride. but my planning lived only for a short while and a speed breaker(Broken road) broke the silent trip as well as the silence of the driver.
after customary welcome slangs he started to wonder at the sorry state of the roads of mumbai.
'I don't know why they cant make good roads in mumbai, after all they are earning so much in mumbai.'
'now a days even election time does not provoke leaders enough to keep their basic promises.'
'rich men are getting richer and poor do not have the place to sleep and a thing to eat.'
'bumbai main bahut paisa hai. people are even earning on phone. just talking to each other and earning dalaali.'

Hold on cowboy! Its my turn now.
'Are you from M.P.' I asked. 'How do u know' with a big smile he said.
That was the first time he smiled in the full conversation(one sided).
'Accent u know', 'I had a knack for accent.'
I myself did not know that I will say such a thing ever but i just did. Strange!
now he introduced himself more formally before putting his views on the general sorry state of everything. Since last 34 years he is an auto driver in mumbai. and he can talk about almost everything you say or think.
'Mumbai main agar power cut ho jaaye to this place will be a dead place. Only 24 hours electricity is keeping this place alive.' totally agreed.
'I have seen murders happening on the mumbai roads. nobody cares for anybody.'
'I also had the chance of going to dubai and making it big when I was young. but I was too scared to take that chance. gaanv ka budhdhi hai na isiliye. You have to travel via ship and you dont know when you will be back in india. scary scenario'
'Oh you are working in a software company. Lage raho. ek naa ek din aap successful ho hi jaaoge' quiet impressive words of wisdom, i must say.
I think I like talking to strangers. Especially drivers. I dont know but I could always have a good conversation with all sorts of drivers.
I gave him the fare. He did not even looked into the meter to cross check.
'It was nice to have somebody from our side(though i am not from M.P. but not being from mumbai and being from a neighbour state, makes me from his side)'. We exchanged smiles and I turned back and left.

पहरा

दिल के
इन ख़यालों पे,
पहरा
हम लगा देंगे,
नींद
तू मत आना,
की अभी
रात
बाकी है,
सपनो में,
बग़ावत की
एक उम्मीद
बाकी है,
मैं सो जाऊं
और
मन
लुट जाए,
ये भी तो,
जायज़ नहीं,
सुबह सुबह
मैं कहीं
खो जाऊं
ये भी तो
जायज़ नहीं.........

ख्वाब

बेमतलब सी बात का हिसाब हो रहा है,
जानते हुए भी कोई क्यों कुछ खो रहा है,
हाथ बड़ाने की वो अधूरी सी कोशिश,
रेत पर बने सपनो के ये निशान,
मुठ्ठी मैं कस के पकड़े रेत के कुछ ख्वाब,
ओस की बूँदो में नहा कर निकले हैं..

पैबंद

बड़ी देर तक हम उनसे नज़रें मिलाते रहे,
क़ि वो अफ़साना कुछ तो बयां हो,

निगाहे उनकी कुछ कहती भी थी शायद,
पर हम ही कुछ यू समझे,

यूँ ही होता तो ये अजब सी कशिश
अधूरी सी बातें शायद ख़त्म ना होती,

मेरा ये अधूरापन सवालों के जवाब देता
मैं फिर बेवजह मुस्कुरा कर कहता
कि मैं आज फिर खुश हूँ,

खुश ही हूँ शायद अपने इस पन पर
अपनी आरज़ू के इस बेरंग से पैबंद पर,

समेटकर आँखों में मेरी यह सारी डोर,
मुड़ जाती हैं आज भी कुछ इच्छाएँ बेवजह मेरी और....

भेस

अनछुआ मैं बहुत साल से,
छुपा हुआ था अब तक,
छोड़कर अपना अस्तित्व,
बदल रहा हूं भेस अब,

चाहत जो थी एक दिन,
अब उसी का नाम प्यार है,
प्यार बदला इच्छा में,
इच्छा अब ज़रूरत है,

चाहत में तुम कहीं नहीं थी,
प्यार तुम बिन प्यार ना होता,
इच्छा थोड़ी स्वार्थी है,
ज़रूरत पर तुमसे परे है,

चाहत में तुम अनजान थी,
प्यार में तुम सहमी सी,
इच्छाओं में तुम चाहती मुझे,
ज़रूरत में तुम्हे प्यार चाहिए,

दोषी कौन है इस व्यथा में,
असमंजस या अनजान अपेक्षाएँ,
या असमय मिलन समय का,
व्यर्थ है अब सोचना भी,

ना रह पाओ अगर अनछुए,
छोड़ अस्तित्व कहाँ जाओगे,
ज़रूरतों को प्यार बना लो,
समय को तुम फिर से चला लो......