मैं रहा हूँ संग पतंगो के...

कोशिशों के दायरे और सपनो के सीमाएँ,
दूर कहीं उड़ती हुई पतंगो की यह अदाएँ,
मैने रंग देखे हैं पतंगो के,
मैं रहा हूँ संग पतंगो के,

उड़ता था मैं रोज़ उनके साथ,
काटता था कभी और कटता भी,
दूर कहीं जाकर गिरता था,
और फिर हर शाम धीर धीरे,
घर वापस आ जाता था,
सूरज को ये भी कहता,
की कल वापस जल्दी आ जाना,
मैने पैसे लिए हैं मा से,
कल भी तो पतंग उड़ाना है,
सपनो में रोज़ उड़ जाना है,

मेरा मॅन और मेरे किस्से,
थोड़े सच्चे थोड़े मीठे,
सॉफ नीले आसमान मैं,
मेरी पतंगो जैसे उड़ते,
उड़ना हक है जैसे इनका,
बातें करना मुझसे हँसके....

Empty Spaces

Once she leaves me alone in the bed,
I do not have any choice but to rest,
I look around for the things she left,
I get nothing but an empty space,

Space where she was sleeping,
With her own cozy soften tenderness,
And when I have nothing to grab,
I grab a piece of softness from her bed,

I turn around and sleep in her place,
Just to check whether I am still awake,
Thinking and smelling her presence,
She was certainly there in that empty space,

It made me wonder that I can feel her,
I still remember that chilling winter,
I was sleeping alone, talking to her,
So loud and so much clear,

Let me sleep at least in the empty space,
Let me catch her all over again,
Let me be with this little thought,
Let me live with her a little more…

सपनो की एक नयी चाल

डोरी फिर उलझ गयी आज,
सपने बुनते बुनते,
अभी तो मैं सोया ही था,
सपना भी यह पहला ही था,

उलझन से शुरुआत हुई,
सपनो की एक नयी चाल हुई,
उलझ उलझ कर रहते हैं,
मेरा मॅन जैसे ये पड़ते हैं,

क्या मैं इन सपनो को,
अलग नही रख सकता हूँ,
सपनो की इस दुनिया मैं,
अलग नही जी सकता हूँ,

Life is moving on

After completing almost 8 months after MBA, I am all set to have a peaceful life?, very ambitious career?, will be filthy rich one day?, will have my own company?, will be working for society?. All these question marks have been there and are still there. What do I need do to do to remove these question marks from my life? Now that is the important question I think. If you can’t beat them join them. That is what the success mantra should be.

But never the less I know the art of achievement. What if my career does not provide me the sense of achievement and appreciation to me? What if my life is not forcing me to quit my job and start over some business? What if I have even stopped thinking about joining some NGO? What if it’s been long since I have actually achieved something great non-materialistically?

So a little analysis before we come to the final conclusion. If I categorize the different times of life then primarily there will be three categories. One when you are down and out. Everything seems not working for you. You are generally in a deep shit. Fucked up with your life, relationship, career, money everything you crave or may crave for that matter. Very similar to what Indian team faced during the recent England tour.

Second would be when you are on a high. When you drink and dope to the death. You buy a lottery ticket and you get the prize too. You go for a vacation to Thailand and Goa with your girlfriends. You are the most important person in the office, star of the month types. You have a girlfriend and a wife too. You are driving the car you never thought of.

Third would be the general life in which you wake up on Monday and don’t want to go to the office. Your tummy is slowly but steadily increasing. Your learning curve is stagnated since long. You have not been hurt/thrilled/happy/sad/fucked since a long time. Basically there is not much difference between you and the flower pot in the house.

So if we see the total life time it is very natural that almost 80% of our life goes in third type of time which is stagnate living. 10% on high and 10% on low!

Every part of time has its importance and there is an art attached to live every part. Like when you are on a high don’t go overboard, I mean you should be able to come back to normal rather than slumping all the way. Low in life is best for learning. The most important lessons of life have been taught in that phase. So one must and must think through this time and learn the art of learning during this time. Also low is generally followed by a very high period. So more and more lows in your life and there are chances that you are going to make it big. Because life will force you to do something which you will never do otherwise.

And then the third and most dangerous one, Normal life! Don’t train yourself to live with the normal life. Very dangerous for the so called achievement and growth in life! But what we essentially need is to understand the art of achievement about which I had talked initially. This art of achievement during the normal time is also important so that you don’t see your life moving on in front of you and not able to do something about it. How to achieve and grow is still a question but need for this achievement and growth is required and one must and must strive for that.

Rose and Daal Chawal

This is a story of rose and daal chawal.
Rose is a little girl. She wants to live her life like a feather.
A feather floating in the air, driving herself through irregular pathways, just letting herself go with the air, just letting herself to be free.
A feather crying quietly on the rain moist leaf of the tree outside her home because its been a while since she has cried and today she just wants to let her heart out.
A feather, when touched to the sensitive skin of a little baby, finally ends up in the giggles by both the baby and the feather.
A Feather safely kept in the personal diary of dal-chawal, in which he has written so many unfinished poems and articles about the love of his life.
Love was the subject he liked in his writings. Incomplete, unfair, painful yet so much needed and so much there.
Let the story begin…

Lets do business

Top line: for a business it is the revenue earned through selling a product. If we observe our body closely we may call our brain as our top line. The areas in which our brain ventures may be called the revenue which it earns from the external environment. This is the cumulative exposure we get by keeping our senses operational. Though most of the times it is not by choice but we somehow gain exposure to different areas.

Bottom line: for a business it is the amount of profit it earned after paying all its dues. All the dues include operational cost, selling and general expenses, cost of investment (interest), tax and income through other resources, if any. For human bottom line can be the legs. More elaborately it can be the actual feet you achieve in different walks of life. The actual learning we inculcate in our behaviour, thinking, habits can be more accurate representative of whatever we have learned.

Cost incurred to achieve the bottom line: in case of a business one has to incur some
cost to get the revenue and hence profits. This is basically the energy (in form of money) which runs the business. As expressed in the paragraph above operational, general expenses, overheads and cost of raw material can be different cost to a business. In case of our body it could simply be the energy to run our body. Energy gained from breathing, eating, sleeping (resting); all contributes towards safe running of our body. Our body processes these form (air, food, water etc) so that we can earn some profit i.e. learn things in life. And inefficient process may lead to a disease, fat accumulation, inefficiencies, unrest, anxiety etc.

So now if we closely observe ourselves then our existence has a purpose like all business and that is to earn maximum profits means maximize our learning as we move ahead in life. The average age of this company is around 65 years and in these 65 years whatever we learn will be more or less whatever we have earned as profits. But as it happens with most of the companies we can not control our processes and costs and end up being a bad company. Though we still survive but not in a way in which we should be surviving. May be we do not set sufficient process for ourselves so that we can control the whole growth. And when we intentionally do not set these systems a default system is being set in place which finally runs our company without our control. So lets not let this default system of chasing money rather than learning stuff, accumulating fat rather than being controlled, putting too much on stakes than to be content (for a change) control our self.